Days After Distance Learning

Being affected by the Covid-19 outbreak, our life has changed a lot. Some people are afraid of getting infected, while some are not. As the number of cases grow up every day, we seem to get used to live with the pandemic. For me, I wasn’t that surprised.

At the moment that our university announced to all of the teachers and students that we needed to use distance learning as an alternative plan, I didn’t know it would bring such a great impact on my life. At first, I thought it was not bad since I could get up later than before. I could even just get up five minutes earlier before the class, and I didn’t need to change my clothes or make up. In addition, I could go to bed at any time as long as I wanted to take a rest. All things seemed to be successful and wonderful. However, I was tired of this kind of life after two weeks. Almost all of my friends went back home as soon as they knew the information of distance learning. Some were taken by their parents immediately, and some took other transportations to go home. I was the one who was left here because I still had part-time work and some activities to do here.

I wasn’t saying that I couldn’t live alone, but I was suffered from the loneliness for too long. It was hard to imagine that a person who always ate, chatted and went out with her friends, and now she had to do it by herself. It was the moment that I realized I couldn’t live without hanging out with my friends, especially when I was studying somewhere far from my hometown but found out that there was no one I could share my thoughts with.

Another thing I found difficult was that it was not that relax and easy when using distance learning as we originally thought. In fact, since we changed into online class, some professors have adjusted their assignments to other forms which were actually more complicated and more time-consuming. I was busy doing those complex assignments, my part-time job as well as the activities I was charging for. With all these burdens on my shoulder, I didn’t even have a decent sleep. Recently I felt stressful and a strong depression that I was scared of being alone in the darkness, and finally, I cried. I couldn’t stop crying whenever I closed my eyes. I guessed that I really needed to take a deep breath, refresh my brain and move on.

After contemplating for several days, I decided to try my best to cheer myself up. After all, this was my life, and I should be responsible to my own life. No matter how hard it was, I still had to conquer all the difficulties instead of staying at the same place and being upset. “It’s time to pull myself together!”, I told myself.

"Keep your face always toward the sunshine, and shadows will fall behind you."

-------- Helen Keller

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